Our Reaction to Situations
I have noticed a trend in my feeds on Facebook & Instagram- that the posts of the inspirational pages or people that I follow lately have all been about how we react to situations. This quote kept popping up, "Life is 10% of what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." - Dennis P. Kimbro
I literally have been thinking, "Is this device I am on reading my brain?" Lately, I have been struggling with the personal situation of being pregnant, feeling absolutely sicker than a dog and I have had some natural emotional ups and downs. So, basically my ego wants to tell these pages/people to SHUT THE F*** UP. Granted my hormones are a little out of whack but to be honest, this first trimester has been one of the hardest things I feel I have dealt with in a while. I haven't been able to practice yoga, walk my dog, eat my favorite foods or even talk to my loved ones. Work has been one hell of a struggle. Everything has made me ill and I had ZERO control over it. Incredibly frustrating!!!!!
Strangely enough, it has been these annoyingly consistent quotes that has made me get up and on to my yoga mat even for 5 minutes instead of hanging out at my pity party. Something that I like to think about in life and discuss in class is, happiness is a choice we make. We can make the conscious decision to be happy or stay unhappy. Just hearing the word "HAPPY" makes us feel a little warm and tingly in our hearts. If you think of someone who makes you so happy, doesn't your bad day seem to fade away?
But have I been making the choice to be miserable and unhappy? I should know better! Did I not realize how lucky I have to have life growing inside of me, even though I spent the majority of 3 months looking at the inside of a toilet bowl? Then one day I saw the second quote, "The only thing you can really control is how you react to things out of your control." - Bassam Tarazi
OH MAN! What an idiot I have been for being such a miserable bum! I obviously cannot control how I feel while pregnant but I sure can control my reaction to this beautiful situation. I am not going to lose my inner peace that I have worked so hard to cultivate just because a challenge has risen. I choose to be happy, peaceful & joyful for my health, my baby's well being and my husband's sanity. There is so much light at the end of the tunnel! :)
But I have learned an interesting lesson through all of this which I will carry with me forever... If you know someone who is going through a seemingly miraculous, wonderful situation please continue to reach out and show your love and support. We all react in strange ways to different things. Sometimes even in beauty exists crevices of darkness. What you think is the most wonderful situation for someone, might terrify the living shit out of them on the inside. Call them, text them, check up on them, bring them soup, whatever works best for you to show you care. If everyone knew how terrible I felt, then the whole world would know that even as a yoga teacher, I am human. I struggle with anger, depression and ego struggles just like many of you do. But here is this blog - raw, honest and truthful. Show your unconditional love to all no matter what. You never know how they are reacting to their unique situation. Namaste! _/\_ <3!